Thresholds are defined as “any place or point of entering or beginning” . Some people see thresholds as the sill of a doorway . More magic-minded folk see thresholds as parts of nature: like where land meets ocean at the beach, or where level ground becomes a mountain . And those focused on consciousness see thresholds as a place in the mind . Dear friends, I am standing in a threshold at the moment . I have reached a stage in my “development” where life’s wonders and mysteries are leaving my soul weary of my day-to-day situation . I have a steady job taking care of people with handicaps and disabilities, as well as working for IHSS to care for my grandmother; but experiences of the supernatural kind, the occult kind, and other modes of expanded consciousness are being laid down before me like a trail of bread crumbs, and I had been spending a lot of time trying to decode where this road goes .

I had been struggling with inertia . I didn’t know where to put my energies in the city I live in - and I still don’t . To put my efforts towards any of the artistic or rehabilitative fields felt like straight-up exploitation . Going to school with my enlightened sense of being made me feel like a crook, being taught all the deceitful smiles and cunning wiles of capitalistic society - but I needed the money . And all I could think about was living on a farm, surrounded by my Tribe, growing small-scale raw foods, and reaping the rewards of soul-nourishing simplicity . And then, last night, I realized: all my efforts in this capitalist caffeine republic were to get me to that dream . To get me to that dream farm . To be able to wake up and go to sleep and say to myself, “No one is controlling me . I am free .” And my soul resonated .

The Wild has been calling me . And I think that’s where the next step in my journey to expand my consciousness has led me . I’m doing research on the Live Power farm and hippie communes in Humboldt Country near the ocean and redwoods . I just want to drop everything: all debts, desires, and illusions; and nourish my soul for a few years in the country . I truly feel like that is where I can attain my true potential, and return home with an answer for other souls who have become weary as I am . I want to offer my family and friends an outlet, just by existing . I want my existence to be a testimony that there is another way to live, and that they can drop their chains whenever they choose, and get reacquainted with themselves and Mother Earth . I’ve never been so sure about anything in my life . Keep me in yer thoughts .

Lovers never lose .