I’ve been struggling with my anger a lot lately, and it hasn’t been an easy swim, dears . Whenever I find myself aggressive, I’m always shocked . I dislike being anything but calm, and so, my faustian mind opens all its compartments and begins to search diligently for the error and what can be done to heal it . My sensitivity simply can’t manage anger, because I understand that our thought patterns toward others will eventually ricochet through the cosmos and ultimately be re-enacted by us . The hardest thing to do is to bite the bullet and expect nothing from anyone, not even their respect and understanding . I must simply give it . I’ve been a victim of many undercover lovers . I can sense intent in anyone, and I would make a habit out of calling their bluffs . Some people are afraid to love, and when I passed that judgment - even if its strictly internally - it would ricochet back .

I watched an amazing video of a man connecting with the source, and he discussed the Laws that govern every dimension: the law of Attraction, the law of Intent, the law of Balance, and the law of Allowance . The universe will make you make allowance of what you attract . If I don’t offer my patience and understanding, the universe is going to swat me over the head to remind me that I must remain sympathetic to all walks of life . If I attract judgment, I will be judged . If I attract compassion, I will gentled by the universe . And if I attract peace, peace will be received . 

So, today begins my first experiment . By struggling with those unaware/unconscious, I myself became very lost and unnerved as a consequence . And by passing judgment on fearful lovers, a fear welled up in my chest: the fear of loneliness and rejection . It is so incredibly liberating to write that . To see the error in my ways and to begin the healing process . So, day one begins with a clear mind . I will return to my gentle ways without the need for anything in return . My faustian mind is always undone just in time . I’ve been unraveled . Again . And I hope life like this never ends .

Day one .

Lovers never lose .